18 Oct 2008 Erghh

 
So here I am, after a few too many heavy nights. Starting to learn that I can't get away with abusing myself too much. Mentally and physically. The cold has begun, the water is on tap as much as I can drink. I've been battling to make every social gathering so I don't lose. But its more out of my control. If people don't want me there, then I'm imposing.
Just watched big bang theory and gossip girl. Lenard is so cute and I'm finding myself relating to Blair. Thats the power of TV.

*yawns*
I'm hoping for a lazy weekend, getting my washing and homework done, but not a lot else really. If I'm invited then Ill be there, if I'm not... then Ill deal with it. In my own lazy time.

Everything happens for a reason. Just need to drum it into my head a little more of recent. Somethings have been happening which makes me doubt why other things happened. What was the reason for it. And what did they get so wrong about me thats so significantly changed their opinion about me. Thats the question that keeps playing on my mind. Also... whats the reason for the lies? It was pretty obvious that we would discuss amongst ourselves the things that we've been told.

Keeping it cryptic is my style.

"you know you love me
xoxo gossip girl"