8 Sept 2008 Untitled... very untitled

 
Just in from spending the day up at the hospital with Mum and Nan
Woke up at 1pm... woops.
Got changed and then went with mum to the hospital.

I knew I needed to go and see Nan.. she was just so frail.
I nearly cried when I was in there alone, her breathing was very laboured and she stopped breathing for a moment
It really scared me, I wanted to shake her to get her to breath again.. she did by herself though.

I dont know if she recognised me. She looked scared... but that could be because she was in hospital.
But I didnt expect her to remember me, I havent seen her for a few months and her memory has detiriated since then.
I held her hand for ages, and she tried to talk a little.
But not much at all, and we could really work out what she said appart from Hello Emma after mum told her who I was.
And thanks after I put the blankets over her more.

Im okay though. Im a little annoyed because I came home to find that Mary was using my laptop and my Ipod without even attemping to ask.
Sure we're sharing a room, and the family computers broken... but seriously... she could have at least called me.

Now its really dark in here, I've shut the curtains and havent bothered turning on the light.
Dads asking if I want food now, so.... its dinner time

Love

Current Location > Dark dark bedroom
Current Mood > I cant even think straight enough to decide how I feel right now... just a little blah.
Current Music > When the Sun Goes Down - Arctic Monkey